Sunday, December 21, 2008

snow snow and more snow....been in the housepretty much since I got home on friday...going stir crazy and need to get out of here and it is not going to happen.....
ok, go that out of my system....
Church was cancelled this morning due to snow....
kids have made candy cane houses...will try to post pics later...
kids have been playing out in the snow and shovelling...and were kind to shovel the neighbors who were kinda nd gave them hot chocolate....
me, I am bored!!!! I didn't get to sneak out and get the last gift ....drats!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

So, SHE has moved back in with BF and Evil Woman. Ernie got a phone call from the housing caseworker and the landlord will not be taking SHE to court for breaking the lease but will be requiring that SHE pay for the exterminator to get rid of the fleas and roaches that are in the apartment that were not there when she moved in. Ernie called the landlord and told him that since he is the payee for the SSI, he will make sure that it gets paid for. Did I tell you that Evil Woman had called the landlord pretending to me be and cursed him out a few weeks ago? Ernie told the landlord that it was not me. Landlord said it was such an evil and vile message that he did not listen to the whole message and is glad to know it was not me.
SHE moved out of the apt on Wed. and has called here a few times. SHE asked Ern if SHE could get someone else to be the payee for SSI and he said sure. SHE has called here looking for money and he told her when her check comes next month SHe will get it.
SHE called one day and TEEN answered. SHE told her that when TEEN's birthday comes ( in May, mind you) SHe will take her out for dinner. Ummm..I think not. I do not want my other cildren being alone with SHE while SHE is living this life I do not approve of.

SHE has not asked to speak to me since before SHE moved. The last time we spoke SHE "F'd" worded all over the place. I told her I refused to speak to her when SHe talks like that so she said "F You, Mom" and hung up. I guess I will mail her gifts off to her. I am not sending gifts to the people SHE lives with.
I beleive that these people have an evil grasp on her. SHE believes what they tell her, like an amino is very important to test for Downs of the baby and for genetic testing. They will not tell us what genetic testing they feel should be done. If there is something wrong with the baby, Evil Woman says there should still be an abortion.
All the workers that have been working with SHE feel SHE has gotten into something very bad. SHE really had a wonderful thing going with the apt and programs SHE was in....
It really is hard not to be worried, I am but with God's help I am not the basket case I would have been a few years ago....

Friday, December 19, 2008

OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY little 15 minute ride home from work took over an hour today...close to an hour and a half, ...going 15 MPH on the highway...shortly after I go off of it, they closed it down......scarey with some idiots flying by and hitting other cars or endingup in ditches or in the median...over 200 accidents in the county betweeen 11AM-1PM today....sure was glad I got home safely...prayed the whole time...every time I saw someone flying by me, was praying that God would spare me and not let them hit me...God was indeed good today to me...hopefully he was good to everyone who had accidents and they were not hurt

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Today at work, I told my boss I would be interested in working full time and then proceeded to feel like I was floundering and felt like I couldn't do anything right or please anyone....
I guess Friday is a new day...tomorrow I am off....

Monday, December 15, 2008

SHE is planning on moving out of her apartment tomorrow and back in with BF and Evil Woman. SHE really had a good thing with the place SHE had...but SHE is throwing it all away to live with those people. SHE had to pay very little out of pocket to live there. I wonder how long it will be before SHE upsets them and they want her to leave??? So far SHE is keeping it under control being off the meds. her sheltered workshop says that SHE is loud and more aggressive but holding it together most days...

It is all just a wait and see game...

Saturday, December 13, 2008

all decorated

Jenna decided this year that she would decorate the tree.....and these are a few of my favorite ornaments
I have some Annalee mice hiding in the tree


the ornament from the Purple heart Hall of Honor...we try to get ornaments that remind us of trips or special places we have been too


I love angels....and this one carries a sign that says "caution:low flying angels"



Ethan and I were haivng a Mommy son day today and we found this cute porcupine...and since he was on sale for less than a dollar , we got him and his buddy





this cardinal was also on sale today...so we bought him and his brother who is hangin out on another branch



Friday, December 12, 2008

Poor disappointed children we had today! The weather people were making such a big deal about the ice we were to have today and all we got was rain. No day off from school and no delays. for children who decided to stay up tooo late that sure did make for a rude awakening and the grouchies!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

http://www.recordonline.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20081210/NEWS/812100351
So, this girl still has not been found...and the person of interest is a real scum bag. Not sure why I am following this so closely.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Warnings for young girls

As I was out and about today, doing my family support for work, I noticed a helicopter flying about. and started to wonder why it was just flying around in a circular pattern. I remembered that there is a young girl, 25ish, missing from NYC and that the man that she was last seen with lives in this area. HMMMM....so, I went and did my family support....and on my way back to work, I noticed a bunch of state trooper cars in what I thought were strange spots....and troopers walking in strange spots...like in marshy middle areas between the eastbound and west bound lanes and over past the guard rails. then I saw the local newspaper's car parked along side of the road. I called home and asked Ern if he had heard anything on the news but he hadn't. When I had a chance, I looked it up on line and they were searching for clues.
What possesses a young girl to get in a car with a man she meets at a night club and go off with him. There was a witness that had been in the car with them and said that they had been kissing and laughing...the suspect is a convicted sex offender...You never can tell just by looking at these good looking young men, they can be evil, just evil....
so, here I am telling my girls to never ever get in a car with a guy that they don't know and to never ever allow a guy they meet at a night club to pick them up like that...and my girls' response was..."Mom we aren't even old enough to get in these clubs and you would never let us go out like that anyway"....

http://news.aol.com/article/police-hunt-for-missing-new-york-woman/270386

Thursday, December 4, 2008

oh....I felt shaggy and looking skunky



oh, it had been a while since I had scheduled time to get my hair done...so, not only was I feeling a bit shaggy...I had that 2 toned hair that I cannot stand to see in other people. Serves me right for thinking bad thoughts about other women who do not keep up with their hair. I really hate it when women ( ok, you men that do it too) color thier hair and don't keep up with it! I finally had a day off from work where I had a whole day that I could do what I needed to do... I called my shop, where I massage, and scheduled a color and a cut....



Before












after














and it never looks quite the same when I do it but it does look a lot better than the before pics!!!













Turkeyday pictures!


what a funny happy day it was, wasn't it?





Terina and Jenna....






Ernie and Jenna





I was soo hungry I forgot to take off the grandma apron!



Jenna hugging the stuffing out of Nana




Ethan participating in his favorite sport...eating





Jenna's pumpkin pie...delish!!!







My apple pie...tasted as good as it looked





Thursday, November 27, 2008

Much to be thankful for this year.....

a warm home
Jesus
a husband who loves me
healthy children
a job I like
parents who are healthy
cars that run
food
clothing
DQ making pies
brothers
working washer and dryer
computers
vacuum cleaner
books to read
a dog
a cat
husbands job
friends

YOU

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

2 pies made...1 pie in our bellies

DQ decided to make pumpkin pies today....and since neither of us are any good at crusts we bought premade crusts...but then DQ followed the directions for the filling and made the pies all by herself. When they were done and cooled, we took one over to our favorite nieghbors and then ate half the other one for our dessert.....it was supposed to be for Thursday but Ern asked what we had that was sweet and since there wasn't anyting, we just had to try the pie...and it was yummy!!!!
I guess I will be making another pie soon!!!

Real People Real Blogs





Linda over at findingfootprintsinthesandpicked me as a recipient for the Marie Antoinette award shown above - Real People - Real Blogs. This is an award for those that write about real things, not necessarily on every entry, but those who share information about themselves or where they live, what is happening in their area or in the world.This award is for passing on to other people. Now it is my turn to choose.
Here are the rules:-
1. Please put the logo on your journal - Real People - Real Blogs.
2. Place a link from the person, from whom you received the award.
3. Nominate at least 7 or more.
4. Put the links of those on your journal.
5. Leave a message on their journal to let them know.
Here are my choices... I'm hoping I picked some people that everyone may not know, so some new friends can be made....
Enjoy....

1. Shel at itsjustmeandthem read about her adventures with her kids as she awaits moving to be with her military hubby. She has very active kids like mine and I am sure I would have thrown in the towel! Shel, I really admire you! ( I love my military families!!!! )

2. Robin yellowbrickroad is another military mom....she picks up and moves across country and makes a house feel like home , even if it is in a trailor park!! She amazes me!

3. Nicholas's Mom Kindyland is the mom of a special needs mom...she has gone back to school and is another inspration

4.coffeeGodandme go read about love affair with the glue gun that ended with an attack....

5.My sil StitchyMcyarnpants while she might not blog in the "normal" sence of the word...I have to put her here...SHe stitched a garment that won Best in Show for an AIDS benefit...

six. ( my number six seems to be broken....) Kathy flamingofeathers because I love the name and because I found her when she wrote about the Topsfield fair...and that brought back memories

7.Suzzanne McMinn http://suzannemcminn.com/blog/ is not on blogger...but I love her blog and when I need to escape with a quick read, I read her books that are published by Sillhouette..ok, I have only rad 2 of them...they are short romantic suspense...but when I need to escape quickly they are great!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

shh....can you hear it??? it is the sound of a dog sleeping, a cat purring, me typing and nothing else!!! Ernie and the kids are visiting his brother in the Albany area. I have a cold and have been blowing my nose and coughing and not much fun, so I stayed home to clean, food shop and get some rest. I cleaned some spots in the house that I never think of cleaning. I cleaned out the freezer, someone spilled a bag of veggies and didn't clean it up, so I did. I cleaned the try the dog food sits on, it was yucky. I pulled the stove away from the wall and cleaned under there....another yuck I am amazed at how much work a person can get done when there is no one around to bother them! I think it is time to go and find something to eat...should be easy to di since ther are no finicky kids to plan for!!!

Friday, November 21, 2008

Ernie had to give SHE some mail that came to our house, so he decided to stop in to the Dr's office yesterday when SHE had her appointment. SHE was there with EW. SHE was excited to see Ernie and asked Ernie to come in to see the Dr too. EW kept asking the DR when they were going to test for Downs symdrome and the DR said SHE is 20, we test for that later in pregnancies and there is no reason for us to think that the baby would have Downs. Ew told the Dr that if the baby has Downs, that the father of the baby would want the baby aborted....( I knew it..I knew it) the Dr said they don't do those things in his office and that it would not be the father's choice but the mother's...andSHE was not following the conversation at all, according to Ernie but when the Dr was trying to explain the how they do the test with a needle in the belly, SHE said no and when EW said you will have it done, SHE agreed...Ernie tried to tell SHE that it is her choice but SHE said whatever BF wants SHE will do.... They just have way too much control over her!!!

I called SHE later in the afternoon and SHE was in tears because her caseworker wants to meet with her on Tuesday and WEdnesday of next week and that ruins her holiday plans for spending iwth with BF and his family. I tried to tell her that when SHE agreed to live in that apartment SHE said SHe would follow the rules and that meant meeting with the social worker when the social worker said and that they need to meet 3 times a week. The worker was willing to drop it to 2 times next week....and that no matter what it would have cut into her plans. So now SHe is upset with me again...what else is new???

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

I am going to go and revise my wedding vows...that sickness and health stuff needs to change...because I don't remember it saying anything about sharing colds....'nough said...sniff sniff

Monday, November 17, 2008

So, over the weekend, SHE called and the BF's evil mom wants to come to the DR appt this week. I said I would rather it just be SHE and Mommy time since I see so little of SHE. SHE said the EW ( BF's Evil mom) wants answers to some questions. I called EW and told her I really wanted to be able to spend time with my daughter...and Ew started spewing evil at me....and said that she will just have to handle this legally.

According to SHE, EW is going to take me to court to get custody of the baby...umm,,,never said I wanted custody....LOL

Took SHE to a therapy appt today and SHE is just a mess. SHE is upset with me for not liking BF and his family. Oh well, I don't have to like them. SHE says that because I am not blood related, and just adopted SHE that EW says I have no legal reason for having anything to do with the baby....LOL would love to see judges face when they read that !!! I will not be giong to SHE's Dr appt...SHE says that EW is going to be taking her. that will last for an appointment or 2...and then SHE will be calling me and I will be right there supporting her like I always do....can't let my daughter go without medical care before she is 21....

Friday, November 14, 2008

I am sitting here feeling like I should have made a phone call last night...

DQ had been invited to a dinner party and movies with her bestest friend on the whole world.


I really do not want to go into all the nasty details here...but DQ was very disrespectful to me and I grounded her.....no party tonight....

I had thought of calling bestest friend's Mom but I was too upset,....

When I came home from work, DQ told me that Bestest friend's Mom had bought movie tickets, last night, for tonight...and I am rotten for not calling to tell her....

I was planning on calling tomorrow....;but now I wish I had done it yesterday....

some days, it really stinks to be the Mom.....

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

they just don't see women as Vets


Today, Applebee's was giving free meals to all Vets and active duty service members. I invited a male Veteran friend to come to lunch with my husband and me. When we walked in it was pretty crowded. I told the hostess that there were 3 of us. A man came in behind us and the hostess asked him is he was there for Vet meal . I walked up to her and told her that I was not asked if we were there for the Vet meal. She asked me if either of the 2 men I was with were Vets. I said I am a Vet and yes one of the men is also a Vet. OH. When my name was called, we were brought to a table, we sat, and menus were put down, the Vet menus were put in front of the men, so I moved one in front of me. The girl who seated us just said OH....When the waiter came, he asked the 2 men if they were going to order from the Vet menu or the regular menu. He asked to see my friend's military ID. My husband said he was going to order from the regular menu since he was not a Vet. At this point, the waiter looked very confused. Then he asked me what I was going to order from the regular menu..and I said "I am ordering from the Vet menu" he looked more confused and asked for my ID...I gave him my DD214 ( discharge type papers) and placed my order. He too said OH


My military service is one of the few things that I am extremely proud of. It really hurts my feelings when I am not recognized for the time that other women and I have given to our country. We are just as important to the military as the men are and we deserve just as much recognition as the men do.


So, Happy Veteran's Day to all the women!


To all my Veteran Friends

Thanks to all who served before I did, to those who served with me, to those who served after me and especially to those who are serving now!!!

Friday, November 7, 2008

AAA and country roads...and MeeMaw, Granny, Nanny, Grandma???

Yesterday, I had a bunch of errands and DRs appts to run someone to. On the way to puick that person up, the battery light came on but I ignored it since lights have been popping on and off all the time due to a loose dashboard wire.... at 4:23, the dials on the dash started to go kerfluey...and I decided to pull over...I called AAA and told them what was going on. The woman at AAA said, it sounds like you need a battery charge, we can send someone out for that and if that doesn not work we will then send someone out to tow you. Um....Lady, while this is a country road, it is quite busy right now and it is getting dark and I don't want my hazard lights to give out on me and have me sitting here in the dark and not have anyone see me. She says it will be ok, it will be be an hour at least for the battery charge and if that doesn't work within another hour we will get a tow truck to you. Lady, you do not understand, it is getting dark, my hazard lights are dimming and I don't want to just be sitting here in the dark where I can't be easily seen, in other words I don't want to get hit!!! Then she asks me where I am, I telll her that I just got off Route XX and I am on Route YYa and am 1/2 mile frome the Route XX junction heading towards town YOuknowwhere. Then she asks for a cross street, Honey, I am on a country road, there are no cross streets. She asks if I can see a mile marker. No, but I am 1/2 mile from Route XX junction and I know that because I am right across from the sign that says so. She then asks for a cross street and I again tell her that the closest cross street in in Town Youknowwhere and if I could walk there I would have walked there for help! I told her to please tell whoever she calls that I am heading toward Town Youknowwhere and I am on Route YYa, just got off Route XX and am half a mile from the Route XX junction and they will know where I am. And then I hear the beep your battery on your phone is going dead. I tell her my phone battery is going dead and to please get off the phone and find someone to help me... So, finally a tow company calls. He insists that he is NOT going to jump me because he is supposed to get off work at 5:30 and if the battery dies, then I will have to wait for somone else to come get me and he would rather tow me...THANK YOU!!!! so, he comes to tow me....takes me to a place.... I had calld Ern and he came to get us....and I finally got home safe and sound at 7pm......

So, the person I was running around all day was SHE ( for new readers SHE is my oldest daughter who is 20, lives on her own in a slightly supervised apartment, she is bipolar and has a lowish IQ, she has been my problem child and still is)...she is now 14 weeks and 5 days pregnant. She has, obviously, decided to keep this baby. I am still adjusting to the fact that she is pregnant so quickly after she had the abortion in June. She did get pregnant on purpose. She is again off her meds and is not doing great but managing to semi hold it together. She has started doing odd things: she talks to her chicken as she cooks it and eats it, has conversations with it. It is only with chicken. she cannot understand why her therapist and I are concerned over this. She "sees" people talking to things that other people don't see. As long as she is not hurting herself or others or getting paranoid, she is ok. If she seems to be really really loosing it, we will see about finding another DR who will either prescribe meds ( her Psych DR will not give her any) and if none of the Drs in the practice won't...then that means she will have to find a new therapist...and that isn't good because that means too much change, at least as I see it.
So, I am being supportive to my daughter and her health and mental well being but I cannot bring myself to be excited about this coming baby...and I keep mentioning adoption to her...she says she is not interested in throwing away her baby like her birth parents did...I just cannot see her taking care of the baby. and please...I really do not want to take it.,....I am tired ...so tired!!!

Monday, November 3, 2008

I would rather

I have changed my mind...I would rather not sleep in the middle of the night...than have to be dealing with head lice for the second time since school started this year,.....just saying

men

There is one thing, that if you are not a sick child, you should never ever interrupt...and that my dear friends is my sleep. Last night, I fell asleep with the TV on. I was blissfully slumbering when Ern woke up and took the dog out... I kinda noticed but that did not wake me up....the dog got back on the bed, I noticed that but it did not wake me up....what woke me up was Ern changing the channel of the TV to a sports channel.....please do not expect me to be all smiles and happy when you wake me up in the middle of the night by changing the channel to sports and I hear some loud man screaming SCORE... then within 5 minutes Ern is snoring next to me and I was wide awake but still very tired...and I didn't fall back to sleep until after 5AM....and he wondered why I didn't want to get up at 6 with the kids.....
I am still trying to figure out how he can fall asleep so quickly after being awake like that in the middle of the night.....

Saturday, November 1, 2008

A few years ago, I started getting movies from company that featured movies for familes....they are clean movies, non-violent, no sex movies for families. I would buy a bunch and then bring them out slowly during the year, or give them as gifts. The same guy usually calls every year. He has always seemed like a nice guy, asks about the kids and if they have enjoyed the movies, which ones they liked the most,..we had nice talks...
When he calls he usually asks for me. This year when he called, I told the guy that I could not afford to buy any. He asked to to please listen to his sales pitch and I did. I again told him that I couldn't afford any this year but please call again next year. He tried to get me to buy a smaller package. I told him again, that I was sorry but we could not buy this year.then he asked if I would be interested in buying only one movie.. I said no thanks but try again next year..and he hung up on me...

Yesterday, there was a phone call and I thought the number was familiar on caller ID and I amswered it. The man's voice asked for Ernie. I said he was not home, and they said they would call again later. After we hung up, I realized it was the guy from that company.

This morning, he called again and asked for Ernie. I told him again that he was not in but he was talking to Mrs J and if he remembered I had all ready told him that I could not afford to buy from their company this year, and that if he kept calling I would not be interested in buying from them next year because I consider this harrassment. At that moment, another voice comes on the line and says that he is the supervisor and that he is very sorry that this has happened and that we will not be bothered again this year...

I am disappointed that this guy acted this way but am so glad that this company does listen in on the calls their company makes....I hope that they will call again next year by another person.

sugar overdose...and food issues

The kids are overdosed on sugar. I figure they are all old enough that they should know when enough is enough and I am tired of arguing with them about how much they should and should not be eating. ( and I wonder why my Son is overweight?) . Obviously, they don't. Last night, as I was getting ready for bed, I heard Son moaning and groaning in his sleep " too much candy, too much candy". I thought to myself " good, maybe he will learn not to overdo it with candy. I do not think he learned his lesson because he is eating candy again.

Many kids who have been in foster care have issues surrounding food. Food is one thing that they can control. Many of them hoard food because food was either withheld from them or there was never enough. When there is "special" food, like Halloween candy, they will eat it as quickly as they can because they are afraid they will never see it again. I had a child who would hoard sliced American cheese...not sure why she liked cheese but she did and so did the mice...

To combat the mice issues, we got a cat...now the cat has issues and loves to bring me the mice...last night, the cat brought me a disemboweled headless mouse and dropped it on my pillow as I was sleeping...what a fitting Halloween present, don't you think?

Friday, October 31, 2008

I snuck a peak..and they are gone

I went over to AOL...and the journals are gone. I had decided not to bring my journal over here. Iwanted a fresh start, sometimes I just need to do that.
It was still a jolt to my heart to know they are gone. All those years we were there and now we are gone, kicked out. How could they do that to us? I am enjoying our new home but still...I hate being evicted when we did nothing wrong. We were good, we cleaned up after ourselves...Well, maybe Dorn didn't with her dustbunnies....but I know I tried to. We didn't throw any wild parties. AOL, I am very disappointed in you and I am very glad I made the move!!!

Physicals and hernia checks and weight gain

OK...My DR left the practice she had been at for a few years...and that practice's office went bankrupt and they closed that office and shipped all the records to an office an hour away. I knew I was going to go where my DR was going and I filled out all the paper-work for them to send all our records to her new place. BUT the old practice was very slow in getting everything to her.....
This year was the year for Son to have his School Physical but Ern forgot to have the paper filled out.....so I could not get my hands on the paper to give to the school. It was taking too long, so I called the school aND asked them to just to the physical on Son. ( Dr was not comfortable filling out papers, without seeing Son, and then she would have to bill for another physical and Ins would not pay, and that is understandable)....
Son comes home about a week ago and told me he had his school physical and that "the lady" wanted him to take off his pants and she wanted to check things out down there and he refused. She told him that he would not be able to play sports and he said he was not planning on playing sports. He said that he was not comfortable with someone he didn't know feeling around down there and if it needs to be done Dr Torres can do it.

Yesterday, I get a letter in the mail from the school saying that upon their examination of Son, they have some findings that need to be followed up with our Primary DR....the kid has gained...are you ready for this one??? Are you sitting down??? OMGoodness.... he has gained according to them...60 pounds in 2 years!!! SIXTY POUNDS IN TWO YEARS!!!!!! They stated he has grown taller but didn't state how tall he has grown but stated they are concerned about his weight for his age...

today, I call the Dr set up an appointment for Dec 16 ( she is very busy, everyone loves her!) , called the school to tell them I am following up on this...then the school calls me back because they are concerned I didn't mention the hernia check. I stated I didn't realize that was a problem. Well, of course it is if a boy refuses to have one done. Umm...no it isn't. It is his body and if he doesn't want a woman he doesn't know touching him down there, it is his right. I told the school we will have our Dr do the hernia check plus child is not planning on doing sports. then she has the nerve to tell me that he is overweight ( well, duh, I know he is a bit overweight, had all ready discussed it last time he saw OUR DR but she is not overly concerned) and that sports would be a great help to take the weight off of him. Sorry but he has never had an interest in sports and I am not going to force him into something he is not interested in, he is doing a marching band with Scouts, and carries a heavy snare drum. Then she had the nerve to ask me if I thought that was enough. I nicely told her that I would discuss this with my Dr and let my Dr give the recommendations to me........

I am in enough trouble with the school district all ready. I did a meeting , with work, with one of my family's , with the school district and the aftermath was not pretty. I had some school district people calling me , quite upset, because of something someone higher up had me change.....not good when I have to go back and work with these people for my own 3 kids. So, now, I really need to try to keep my nose as clean as I can, you know?

Thursday, October 30, 2008

strange strange weather....strange strange behaviors

what a strange week it was....Monday started out very windy. I felt like I was being blwon off the road while going to work. Tuesday it was more of the same but with slush falling from the sky. Wednesday, I headed out to work with more wind but ice falling fromthe sky. There was no accumulations but the drives were horrendous.
Tuesday night, there were a half a dozen police cars and a few ambulances down the road from us for about a hour. Not sure what was going on. Last night,around 8PM, while I was out at a meeting, they closed off the road, and there was , again, about a half dozen police cars and a few ambulances at the same home. This time, the police were NOT letting any cars down the road at all. The kids said that around 9PM, they all left. I looked at the web site for the local paper and for the local news stations but could not find anything about it. ....strange.....I do know that a month or so ago, I saw police escorting a man with suitcases from that home...so I am thinking some sort of domestic distrubance.
A few of my work families have had children hospitialized...and that upsets me so. As you know, I work with families that have children with mental health issues, and try to help the parents keep the kids home and out of hospitals and out of residential treatment placements. I feel like I let these families down but my co-workers let me know that I didn't. I was re-assured that this is the time of year that these things happen....shool pressures get to be too much, holidays are around the corner, the kids are inside more... It was/is still disheartening.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

what is OCC?

OCC stands for Orange County Choppers...or as they are also known American Choppers...and they can be seen on TV on the Discovery channel. I do not usually watch them...but occasionlly will take a quick peek. They make custom bikes ...they have made bikes for Lance Armstrong, a bike to remember those who lost thier lives in 9/11, a bike for A Rod of the Yankees ( boo ) , , they makde a bike for Santa., a POW/MIA bike....lots of cool stuff

Saturday, October 18, 2008

OCC

My brother is visiting from the Seattle area....we went to the OCC today to look around their store and then we went to dinner. I had more fun at the OCC than I did at dinner.





Here are Rob, Ethan and Ernie looking at a bike


This is the 9/11 bike.... on the wall behind it are patches that different fire departments, police dpartments from all over the contry sent in,,,,, it is very moving to see

the family ( minus me) out in front of the OCC.... we are less than 5 minutes down the road from them...we often see the guys when we are out and about

Dinner was at TGIFridays...and I have been dieting...I picked chicken and shrimp....and asked for extra veggies, no potatoes........first they gave me potatoes and forgot half my veggies and the shrimp were friedand I thought they were not......and when the veggies came they were mush..... not at all happy but didn't complain because they were busy and I was tired of waiting... I was sooo disappointed. It made this dieting girl sad...
The company amde the bad meal much better!!!


Friday, October 17, 2008

maybe you know why?

I am assuming it is the joke a computer we have here....but whenever I go to look at certain blogs here ....and I click on them, the internet stops responding,...it is the same ones all the time....
any suggestions???

Monday, October 13, 2008

lumps in boobs

16 year old daughters just should not have to worry about lumps in boobs.....Teen felt a lump and we went to the DR who thinks it most likely is a cystand also felt another one...and said it is unusual for a teen to have anything but cysts and lumpy breasts, especially if there is more than one lump....

but we go for a sonogram on Thursday just to be sure....Dr said a mammo is probably not a good thing since teens have dense breasts and the sonogram should tell more...so...we wait til we get results....

And so I tell Teen...Don't worry, I am sure nothing is wrong....
and in private, I am chewing my fingers to nubs

Saturday, October 11, 2008

6 unexpected tings about me....

I was tagged...and so here I go


1. I do not like chocolate....unless it is a Reese's peanut butter cup

2. I do not like hotdogs..no way no how....

3. when there are stinky smells in our bedroom, the dog always gets blamed....it is always his fault, unless it is the husbands

4. when my youngest brother was a baby, I used to dress him in my doll clothes and pretend I finally got a baby sister

5. I had my children believing that on Veterans day. they had to give me a gift because I was a Veteran. Then one of them got smart and asked a teacher if that was true.

6. I hate to put away clean laundry....and if I can get someone else to do it, I am a happy person....

I tag anyone else who wants to tell us unexpected things about them,......

tape pal


Hellow to all my Pumpkin Pals





My friend Shay, who I met through Aol blogs and who has a blog here, does tape paling...and I asked if I could be a tape pal...and today I recieved my very first tape from her. It is like being a pen pal but with tapes. She has the cutest accent!!!

so, this afternoon, I am going to go into hiding and listen to her tape and maybe find some time to answer her!!!!

Friday, October 10, 2008

looooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnggggggg weeekend

he is making noise
she is making noise to irritate me
he is looking at me
she is looking at me
he is sitting where I want to sit
it is my turn to decide what to watch on tv
you are looking out my window
I don't want to do more chores
I am bored but am tired of chores
don't look at me
your breath smells
you farted
mom, he is making noise in his bedroom
mom, make her stop complaining about me


these are my 12 and 13 yo children.....ahh...and to think when they were toddlers, I used to dream of when they would be teens...was I on drugs?

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

grrrr

people who rear end you and then drive off should be shot...just saying....anyone know a goood massage therapist?? oh, yeah!!! me!!!! kinda hard to rub the sores out of yourself though!!!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

rumor has it

Usually, I do not listen to rumors but ...with aol closing our journals..I am starting to listen to the rumblings that AOL will be closing the doors completely with the beginning of the new year...so, I am changing my email over to a gmail account. It will be the same except it won't be at @aol.com ...........

I was upset with the closing of the journals and I had thought of bringing my journal over here but I decided not to. Sometimes change is a good thing. Without change we stagnate and don't grow. Change can be a good thing!!! I am embracing this change as a wonderful thing

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Life chain and situational morals

Each year, on the first Sunday in October is the Life Chain when many Pro-Life supports go and stand along busy road sides holding signs against abortion. I have gone almost every year since my marriage 17 years ago. One year I didn't go because we had 2 very active foster sons and it was not safe to take them with us.

This year, I did not gone. I could not go.

I just did not have it in me to go.

I have honestly believed that abortion is wrong. I have believed that it is the killing of a life. While it is each person's decision, I have believed it is morally wrong. As an infertile woman, who adopted older children, it always ripped my heart open to think of all the babies that were not born because of abortion.

Back in June, someone very close to me became pregnant. She is someone who should never ever have become pregnant but she did. She was on heavy duty meds and the damage was done to the baby. As soon as her Dr heard she was pregnant, he took her off her meds. If she were to go to term, she would need to stay off her meds. She wanted to have that baby. Those of us who loved her watched her spiral out of control off her meds. We watched her go to a very dark place where the paranoia struck, where people in cars next to her on the highway were talking to her and telling her to jump out of the car going 65 MPH, the ceiling would open up at night and talk to her, she started becoming violent and the people she lived with were locking their bedroom doors at night, she was becoming suicidal. She was calling me at all hours of the night begging me to put an end to this. After about 3 weeks of this, I started agreeing that an abortion was what would save her life since the Drs would not give her anything to help her mental status. There was no way I could see her going to term like this. She went to Planned Parenthood, they counselled her, she had the abortion. My heart broke when she called me and said I forced her into it. I didn't even go with her to any of her appointments.

September came and she because pregnant again and told me that she has an abortion scheduled on Wednesday. This time her Dr has allowed her to stay on her meds. My heart is again broken.

The thing about abortion is that it just doesn't affect the mother, it touches the lives of all those who love her, if she chooses to tell them.

So, I have been sitting here this afternoon, wondering, are my morals situational? Would I make the same decision again and advise her to have the first abortion? I was talking with one of the Elders in my church about this and he was saying, "Stop Abortions" is really so simplistic until you really stop to think about it and the lives that are affected by it. While, I still think it is wrong, I still feel I have the responsibility to protect the mother who is pregnant...she is here right now and that baby is not...
For those of you who have followed me over here from AOL, I am sure you can figure out who she is ....and why I feel/felt the need to protect her

Saturday, October 4, 2008

want a laugh?

Look over to the right and click on Stitchy Mcyarn pants's link...and see my brother dressed in abeer can evening gown...and read the story behind it...briefly, my SIL did it for someone who will be wearing at a AIDS fundraiser in LA....

Friday, October 3, 2008


ok, it is not too clear...but this is my latest finish.. It was a mystery exchange that I did on one of my yahoo groups....http://groups.yahoo.com/group/crossstitchreviewer/
It is getting chilly here and the mean old lady who lives here is refusing to turn on the heat...I guess I should just go put more clothes on...LOL since I am the mean old lady

Henny Penny, the sky is falling

I wish I had tome to go over to aol and back up my journal and save it. But I don't. I have almost 5 years worth of a journal over there and I have about 5 minutes worth of free time.
I need to head out to a Dr appointment soon but befoer I do that I must rake up some acorns because the sky is falling, Henny Penny. Yesterday, an acorn hit a grandomother on the head as she was waiting to pickup her granddaughter at the pre-school at our church which is right across the parking lot. The preschool teachers are afraind a child is going to be hurt by the falling acorns...and they would like us to try to stop them from falling ( huh?) and to keep them swept up. I feel the sky must be falling, Henny Penny

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

so, here I am....

I have escaped from aol...and hope many of my friend have joined me here. I am not sure if I am sticking around because I also have a place on multiply that I have had crosstitch stuff on...so we will see...but for now here I am....