what a busy week...SHE and the BABY are home....and I guess they are doing ok. SHE is following the what the boyfriend's mother tells her to do and of course we all know it is gospel truth. oh, you want an example, do you? ok...like you should give the baby water for hiccups...yup at least 2 ounces.. I told her that is SHE does that five times a day, that is 10 ounces of formula the baby should have had. and now, I am told I never brought a new born home fromthe hospital, so, what would I know....Probably a lot more than they do since I did take classes in order to bring foster kids into my home when I did foster care....

My early Mother's Day gift

SHE decided to give me an early gift....

Vincenzo Neil....8lbs 13oz...22 inches

I hate PORN

ok...I caught one of my kids looking at pron...actually saw them and know who it was this time, instead of just seeing it on the history......and I have to find a way to block that from happening again!!!I really do not have the time to sit in the room with each child as they share one computer...or even if they all had their own computer, I don't have the time to sit in the dining room and watch what they are doing.. you know, I need to cook, clean and yes, even pee sometimes!!!! ..I really need to block those things. When we were straight aol, we could block stuff but now, they just bypass aol and go right to the web and see what they want. I need to be able to feel like I can get some sleep if one of the kids wants to work on a school project late at night but it is getting so that I feel like they can't do that.....I need a nanny who can be there...I hate having kids who know more about coputers than I do. have to find a way to outsmart them!! I was able to change their passwords to their accounts last night...but need more than that...any suggestions?

The shower was ok. It was a very small event but was ok. I has TEEN take some pics but she didn't take many. Before I left, I put together the pack and play, with help from one of SHE"s friend's. The boyfriend kept asking why we were putting it together and I told him tha tthe baby is due in a week, and that they need something put together just in case. The crib is bought but not together, yet.
I spent some time, alone with the other mother..and I think we finally connected....she has an older son, 25, who is on 3 years probation for drugs. He has been MIA since Thursday. She said he is really stressing her out, and that she is worrying about him all the time, and when he doesn't come home, she doesn't sleep..and that she is thinking of putting homj out of the house. I spoke up and said, that while my situation with SHE was different....I could understand how she felt. When SHE was terrorizing my younger children, and then moved out, it was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders and then my other children were able to feel safe and were able to settle down. When SHE wanted to move back home I had to say no, it was a very hard thing as a parent to say no but I had my younger children to think of. I told her that she will now have a baby in the house to think of and her health and that her son is an adult. She was able to tell me that she sees the things I was telling her about SHE. I think we understand each other better now.

I will try to get the pics on here later..

Baby shower day....

today is the day of SHE"s baby shower...and I woke with a headache and a feeling of dread. I am not at all excited about this. You all know how this how relationship between SHE and I has been.

so far, the day is showing me I should stay in bed. I asked TEEN to take my massage table and stuff out of the van...and she dropped the head piece and left it in 2 pieces, and did not notice. One piece had dried up dead leaves all over it...and I just yelled at her. Then I felt horrid. She picked allthe little leaf pieces out of the face pieces and if I glue things, I might be able to use it. If not, I guess I will order an new one...
I started to put the gifts I had in the van. One is a cute little swing, that can be used as 3 pieces, a swing, an infant seat or a toddler swing. I had to take it apart to get it in the van..and as I flipped the seat upsidedown..something started to drip out of it....and I touched it, smelled it...and it smelled like cat pee...So, inside I went to get cleaning stuff to clean it all up. Now I hope it doesn't smell. Stupid Tanner probably did it, ugly tom cat!
My living room stinks like hamsters....probably because all the kids think it is not their turn to clean the cage...I am starting to think it is someone's turn to clean the cage and maybe that someone can be found at FREECYCLE. Kids all moaned at that but still have not moved....

I have to go and pick up DQ at a friend's...she had a sleepover. then she has a therapy appt, then we come home to gett TEEN, drop DQ off at my co-workers and then TEEN and I go to the shower. DQ was invited but has such anxiety over her sister having this baby and is soo angry that her sister could be so irresponsible that she decided , with my blessings, not to go. I also did not want to have to drive an hour home with DQ having a melt down!

SON will be home alone, on the computer,,,and Hubby is playing chess today. He felt he needed a stressless day..
hopefully I will have pictures when I get back!

ok....I have had the worst time saying the proper words this week. last night I told teen to shut her wallet. She looked at me like I lost my mind. HUH? close your wallet on your neck....
Mom, It's a locket, not a wallet.
that is what I said...close your wallet.

the ants go marching one by one...

it has been rainy and gloomy the last few days...and we have ant infestation at work...I have been doing an ant dance at work all day. I have been stomping on ants. I have been knocking htem off my desk and stomping on them, knocking them off the wall and stomping on them,,,,ick!!! One of my coworkers walked into the office and asked why we had mini chocolate chips all over the floor....LOL......... yuck!!!